Hey!

Haven't posted in the longest time...I apologize to any followers!

I left my mother's house a couple of months ago, because I had had enough of her stupid boyfriend accusing me of doing drugs and sexually harrassing me. I now live with my father out on the edge of Solvay, on the West side of Syracuse. I am so glad to be out of there! I now have a boyfriend who I am falling in love with, and I am finally becoming content with my life! :) More on this another day, good-bye for now!

Blah blah blah, blah blah blah blah blah! That's all I heard from my stepfather last night. He needs to stop lecturing me on every little thing, honestly. He thinks I'm going to get into drugs or something, even though I know how to resist peer pressure better than anyone I know. Not to mention, I am now eighteen, which means I am a legal adult, and I can take care of myself, thank you very much! Anyway, I have some school work to do, so I'll post later.

Please read this if you read Blackrose

I don't know if anyone reads this blog, but I know there are a few who read Blackrose, and I am glad; Ritayan and JadedChalice, along with Zeynep, have commented on my posts and encouraged me to keep writing. I thank them, as well as any anonymous readers, and Ritayan most of all; he has inspired me to write about differing themes, and it is becoming gradually easier to do so. Thank you very much, Ritayan, for telling me to write about things other than pain and depression. In addition to making me a better writer, it has also helped me to escape from my depression more often.:)

On a side note, my eighteenth birthday is in four days, and I am excited!

If anyone has any ideas for me to write a poem about, please do not hesitate to leave a comment here with a suggestion. Thanks, everyone, and I will continue writing...

I should post more on this blog...

Today has been pretty horrendous. A couple of my friends are being bitches to me, but whatever...Oh, there's this new guy in my school who I think is really cute, and I see him sitting in front of me right now. Ha! I do almost all of my blog entries from my school library because my parents don't usually let me on the laptop at home. So when I feel inspired when I'm at home, I write in my notebook and then copy it all down in my blog later.

I am very ADHD when it comes to writing my entries to this blog, so it does jump around a bit; for example, now I'm changing the subject to acting. I'm in the Drama Show again--well, I'm actually in both of them. Anyway, I love acting, and I am considering going to college with acting as my major. There is a college I've been looking at, and a very nice one, too, but there is one problem; it's all the way in California! For now I am going to OCC, but maybe I'll transfer to California after a year or two.

I love writing poetry, as anyone can see from my other blog, Blackrose. I also like drawing, singing and acting, but I don't have a way to display those on here at the moment. Right now, I am in both Drama Shows at Jamesville-De Witt High School; Who Gets Charlie? and 13 Ways to Screw Up your College Interview. I am told I'm very talented when it comes to acting and singing, but I have never been in a musical. Yawn...that's all for now. Byez

There's a list of things you have or haven't done in your life that I stole from Violet's blog at Blogspot, because I want to try some of these things I haven't done yet:

01. Bought everyone in the bar a drink
02. Swam with wild dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid
06. Held a tarantula
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. Said "I love you" and meant it
09. Hugged a tree
10. Bungee jumped
11. Visited Paris
12. Watched a lightning storm at sea (that sounds scary)
13. Stayed up all night long and saw the sun rise
14. Seen the Northern Lights (they were gorgeous!)
15. Gone to a huge sports game
16. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
17. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
18. Touched an iceberg
19. Slept under the stars
20. Changed a baby's diaper (when my half-siblings were babies)
21. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon(I wish!!!)
22. Watched a meteor shower
23. Gotten drunk on champagne
24. Given more than you can afford to charity
25. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
26. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
27. Had a food fight (all we threw were raisins and we got banned from the cafeteria for a MONTH!)
28. Bet on a winning horse
29. Asked out a stranger
30. Had a snowball fight
31. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
32. Held a lamb
33. Seen a total eclipse of the moon
34. Ridden a roller coaster
35. Hit a home run (if you count on a video game...?)
36. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking (I used to, anyway)
37. Adopted an accent for an entire day
38. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
39. Had two hard drives for your computer
40. Visited all 50 states
41. Taken care of someone who was shit-faced
42. Had amazing friends
43. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country (but I have danced with a stranger FROM a foreign country...)
44. Watched wild whales
45. Stolen a sign
46. Backpacked in Europe
47. Taken a road-trip (three times: Missouri, Florida, and Arizona, in that order)
48. Gone rock climbing (I doubt gym class really counts)
49. Midnight walk on the beach
50. Gone sky diving (maybe someday, if I don't chicken out)
51. Visited Ireland
52. Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love
53. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them (I'm too shy to do that)
54. Visited Japan
55. Milked a cow
56. Alphabetized your CDs
57. Pretended to be a superhero (when I was young)
58. Sung karaoke (again, when I was young)
59. Lounged around in bed all day
60. Posed nude in front of strangers (ha, yeah right!)
61. Gone scuba diving
62. Kissed in the rain
63. Played in the mud
64. Played in the rain (who hasn't?)
65. Gone to a drive-in theater(again, I was young...it was for the first Shrek movie)
66. Visited the Great Wall of China
67. Started a business
68. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken (not yet, but maybe getting there!)
69. Toured ancient sites
70. Taken a martial arts class
71. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight (we play for four or five hours at a time)
72. Gotten married
73. Been in a movie
74. Crashed a party
75. Gotten divorced
76. Gone without food for 5 days
77. Made cookies from scratch
78. Won first prize in a costume contest
79. Ridden a gondola in Venice (but I want to!)
80. Gotten a tattoo
81. Rafted the Snake River
82. Been on television news programs as an expert
83. Got flowers for no reason
84. Performed on stage (but only at school)
85. Been to Las Vegas
86. Recorded music(I don't know if you count recording your voice on a phone)
87. Eaten shark
88. Had a one-night stand (it was mutual, really)
89. Gone to Thailand
90. Bought a house
91. Been in a combat zone
92. Buried one/both of your parents
93. Been on a cruise ship
94. Spoken more than one language fluently (Hablas espanol?)
95. Performed in Rocky Horror
96. Raised children
97. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
99. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
100. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
101. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
102. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking
103. Had plastic surgery
104. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived
105. Wrote articles for a large publication
106. Lost over 100 pounds (If I did that, I'd weigh less than 8 pounds!!!)
107. Held someone while they were having a flashback
108. Piloted an airplane
109. Petted a stingray
110. Broken someone's heart (he got over it, but soon I will do it again to someone else)
111. Helped an animal give birth
112. Won money on a T.V. game show
113. Broken a bone
114. Gone on an African photo safari
115. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced
116. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
117. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild (I don't even like mushrooms)
118. Ridden a horse (only ponies at the fair when I was very young)
119. Had major surgery
120. Had a snake as a pet
121. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
122. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours (only the two occasions when I pulled overnightters--NEVER AGAIN!)
123. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
124. Visited all 7 continents
125. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
126. Eaten kangaroo meat
127. Eaten sushi
128. Had your picture in the newspaper
129. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
130. Gone back to school
131. Parasailed
132. Petted a cockroach (one word: ewww)
133. Eaten fried green tomatoes
134. Read The Iliad - and the Odyssey
135. Selected one important author who you missed in school, and read (still in school, until June!)
136. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
137. Skipped all your school reunions so far
138. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language (the foreign boy I dances with at a New Year's party--my Ukranian BFF helped me out)
139. Been elected to public office
140. Written your own computer language
141. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream (when the boy I fell in love with seemed in love with me...for a while, anyway)
142. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
143. Built your own PC from parts
144. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you (I haven't even sold my artwork to someone who knows me!)
145. Had a booth at a street fair
146. Dyed your hair (I might use Splat on the tips, though)
147. Been a DJ
148. Shaved your head (NEVER!!!)
149. Caused a car accident
150. Saved someone's life (but mine was saved; I nearly drowned once)

The things I've done are in red.